February 28, 2020

Contemplation on the Struggle of Life and Death

We lost Miracle's little doeling (see "Triplets for Miracle"). She had a very rough start as it was and still struggled for her first few days. Yesterday, I went out to the barn about 4:30 a.m. and found her very still and barely breathing. She was cold, so I knew I needed to get her warmed up as quickly as possible. I brought her into the house and submerged her body in the kitchen sink filled with warm water.

Dan and I took turns holding her head up and keeping the water warm to raise her body temperature (roughly 102° to 104°F for goats). We didn't know if we could save her, but we knew we had to try.

The having to try is part of the responsibility we took on when we got animals. I call this stewardship, i.e. doing everything necessary for the animal to be and do what it was created to be and do. Emotions are irrelevant. We don't see our chickens and goats as part of our family, but that doesn't mean that we treat them with disregard. I didn't feel like getting out of bed at 4:30 in the morning, but I did it because Miracle's kids needed to be checked on again. I set myself aside as part of my responsibility toward my goats.

Now, I was cradling Baby Girl's head in my hand and watching changes in her breathing as she drifted in and out of consciousness. She had struggled to enter life, was she struggling now to enter death?

Always in my mind when I face problems with our critters is, what else can I do? I'm not talking about life at any cost. People who see all their animals as pets will go that route, but on a homestead like ours, that isn't realistic. I do what I can, the best that I can, and then accept the outcome. Sometimes that means death.

Baby Girl finally stopped breathing and that was that. I know that I did what I could and that there is no place for blame. Miracle still has her two boys, and since goats apparently can't count, she's blissfully unaware of the loss.


And life goes on.

February 27, 2020

Triplets For Miracle

On Tuesday, Miracle spent a lot of time in the barn, even when the others went out. Her due date was March 1st, so we were well within her expected labor and delivery time frame. Dan and I prepared the kidding stall, and at afternoon chore time I moved her in.


At suppertime she finally started pushing. I always watch to get a clue as to how the baby is presenting. Two feet is normal, followed by a nose if the kid is head first. I saw neither feet nor nose, so I gently tried to feel what was going on. This baby was trying to be born tail first—no good! I managed to find one leg and foot and pulled him out. 

Miracle's first buckling.

The second seemed to take awhile. This time when she started pushing there was only a nose. I felt around for front legs but couldn't feel them—no good! The baby's head was huge and Miracle wasn't able to make much progress on her own. First-timers are often tight. I knew I had to get that baby out, and somehow I managed to get my hand over the head and hook it at the neck with two fingers. Miracle screamed and it took a lot of pulling but she managed to deliver a huge black buckling.

Interested onlookers

There was no time for a picture, however, because the third kid was right behind him, also nose first, also no legs, also no good! This one was smaller so easier to pull out. It was a doe, but she was still and not breathing. Trouble was, kids #2 and #3 were still firmly attached to their umbilical cords and a yet undelivered placenta. Dan ran to get my surgical scissors and I cut the cords. The black buckling was sputtering, but the little doe still wasn't breathing. 

Black buckling was second, little doeling was last.

I spent the next several minutes furiously massaging with a towel and clearing the remains of the birth sac and mucous from her airways. She started to squawk and pant, and I noticed her tongue was bluish. That's a sign of not enough oxygen—no good! She had a lot of mucous down her throat, which I was able to pull out in strings. She continued to pant and cry and eventually, her tongue became more pinkish. She still had trouble breathing, however, which was worrisome. She was shivering. She needed to conserve her energy to breath, so I put a kid coat on her, even though the temperature was mild.

Being born is hard work!

Trying to help them get their first colostrum was a challenge too. The black buckling finally managed on his own, but the other two were slow. The little doe was still panting through her mouth and wouldn't suck. Between trying to get her on her mom and trying to bottle feed her, she got a little down. I started her on a lung tincture, just drops per dose.

The next day her breathing was better. She wasn't panicky and was able to stand on her own.



She and her littlest brother both still had trouble finding and latching onto a teat. They wouldn't take the bottle, but they would swallow half-droppersful of Miracle's milk, so at least I know they're getting something down until they are steadier on their feet and figure it out. It's funny how some kids catch on right away, while others are less steady and take longer.


So, all's well that ends well, but it was definitely not an enjoyable kidding, nor one that I want to repeat.

UPDATE: I'm sad to have to say that we lost the little doe. What happened? Click here.

Triplets For Miracle © February 2020